I stayed away from people for a short time as I tried to slough off the emotions that clung to me. I walked around to my fathers wagon to see if I could speak with him but he was no where to be found, it would seem that he and Chay were out hunting at least that is what Ulric told me but I could tell by his expression that he was hiding something from me. But I did not push I knew not to. Ulric has been around for a very long time and I knew that look that said he wasn't going to share anything.
So, what to do with myself, I was tired and feeling a bit irritable and restless, so I went to the main fires and sat for a bit, in truth I was some what uncomfortable, and I found myself wanting to lunge at the jugular of a few, not because they did anything but just because it was what I was feeling. So I left the fires to try and occupy my hands. I was feeling to raw and sensitive I knew this and I knew of myself that it is better to stay away from people that way I do not unintentionally hurt them with my mouth as it could be quite a weapon when I chose to use it for such.
But I was irritated with Ayguili, in fact I felt a bit hurt. But, I said nothing. I had to work thru these things as best I could, eventually I returned and found Ayguili and Ongel talking, or rather as soon as I sat down Ayguili left irritated, at first I thought it was me, but I would find out it was a discussion between him and the healer that set him off. Ongel was also somewhat irritated and I asked of it, of course I got the nothing routine, but I knew better. He did the evasive maneuver and turned the discussion towards me he wanted to know how I was doing, I was honest with him, I really did not know. There was so much in my mind and so much I felt, we spoke a bit on this and he gave me a few thoughts to consider and the things he mentioned they made sense to me, and I will try this to see how it goes. He is right, and I was glad to be able to speak of it.
In the process of this discussion, he told me he had been an ass. Now, what man is not an ass from time to time, but I did get that it had to do with his discussion with the Ubar, something in the discussion with me seemed to have also helped him to see something and realize something. He quickly commanded takara to make a basket with an array of foods and drinks, he wanted to find Cana and asked if I knew where she was. Well, if she wasn't at her wagons I would say she was at the kaiila pens. So I sent lily to find her, and sure enough she was at the pens. Next thing I knew, Ongel was urging me to join him that we were going to have a picnic with Cana. Now something was up but what I am not sure, it had to do with his talk with Ayguili I just knew it did.
Sure enough when we found her he told her he could no longer be her healer and went on to explain why. Well now I could see his point on a few things, I could also see why Ayguili might get upset, but I think that sometimes Ayguili doesn't always hear what he needs to, at times I have noticed he is quick to brush things off or blow of a few emotions and thoughts, I have once before pointed this out and well, he is a man and makes mistakes he cant be perfect, and he will never make everyone happy, he can only do the best he can and he will take missteps. I think he will realize a few things himself as well.
Takara lay out a blanket with an array of foods, now Ongel decided we were having a wager , who could gain the most weight in two hands. And if one of us won then he would, now let me see what all he said, clean our wagons and a whole list of things I will have to ask Cana. and if he wins then we have to paint his wagons. Gain weight, I had to look at myself, I wasn't skinny, I wasn't fat, but I had curves in the right places and they were soft not bony. How in the name of the skies do I gain weight, I don't like sweets, and I work so much that I would burn of anything I did eat. Well this is a dilemma, Now Cana she needs to gain weight, and she likes sweets, now I was liking this wager, she would have to eat gain weight and gain strength, okay I would go for this wager . Even if I lost, it still would be a good wager. So I was eating the meat and they had the sweets and we shared in some drink as well.
Now I rarely drink anything stronger than black wine, so the drink relaxed me, it was not really strong enough to affect me to the point that my senses were clouded or that I did anything foolish, but the night was filled with laughter and jokes, and they were trying to get me to do the sweets, okay I tried the one drink, oh good skies I felt my cheeks pucker in ward and my body shudder from how sweet it was, then there was a bit of a kick to it a bit of fire, that part I liked, I do enjoy that. But damnation sweet, ew, ew and double ew. Before I knew it they had me eating sweets. See he is damn dangerous, next thing I know he will have me liking sweets.
He shared a story of when he was first mated and how he ended up with his backside painted because he passed out on the steps of the wagon, ohh now this I found amusing and I also had a really good visual in my mind, as I was relaxed enough that I was not holding on to those walls and curtains that hide me. I was enjoying myself with them and the laughter made my sides hurt. Rook took Cana away to make her rest just as Ongel suggested we dance, now not the kind that slaves do, and yes, free women do and can dance. Now, she nearly blew me away, when she said, that we should go find furs together, now wait a minute no she didn't say that and by her laughter, oh yes she did. Now what was she trying to say or better yet what was she trying to do. That is as bad as Ayguili saying I should have offered myself the other night, now what he meant by that I am not sure. Just what are the two of them up to.
But, anyway I had to laugh as I told him that there he went and scared everyone off again until it was just the two us again. takara was imbibing a lot of drink and food and was just enjoying herself by the blanket. I felt the warmth of his hand as he took mine in his and drew me closer not to close but just closer and we began to dance I had to laugh as he dipped me, ever watch the ground and the sky switch places well that is pretty cool. Good thing he had a hold of me or I would have been topsy turvey myself.
He commented on how very beautiful I was, and how that made me feel inside I don't think words would justify,and of course I had to tell him just how handsome he was as he helped me to stand, one hand would rest on his shoulder as I found myself closer to him, I could inhale his scent, it was masculine, held the strength of the man, the healer, the warrior, and yet it was tempered with passion and the plains, it was unique and I found it rather tantalizing. He caught the scent of my hair and commented on it and in that moment it was as if something were weaving around us, beckoning and pulling. As we spoke on these scents he pulled me closer to him and I felt him as I am sure he felt me. There was a sudden want there that was smoldering and threatening to ignite into an inferno if either one of us were not careful and we both were aware of this. When he spoke I felt his breath caress my lips in a soft, warm touch, strange is it not that I found myself wanting to feel his lips against mine. It is not easy to illicit such from me, and I could not deny it was there, I wanted to feel him and taste him, yes, he is definitely dangerous. I think he may have wanted it to but knew just what that kiss might ignite and instead I felt his lips along my neck and a light nip which sent a shiver thru me, damn I wonder if he realizes just what that did to me. But I knew I was not alone, because his words of walking me to my wagon before we both could not stop allowed me to know that he was affected also, as well as a few words he spoke of earlier. They put a few visuals in my head that I think would tease me most of the night.
Now see I decided to take a step I do not know why and it isn't something I would normally do, but it was there in my mind so I spoke of it to him, I told him that I hoped that my scent would stay with him all night and the next day so that he would be reminded of me, and to dream of me. I can say this much, I definitely lay awake for a while as things he awakened in me would stir beneath the surface for a while, I know that he was on my mind when I finally was able to sleep.
He was becoming dangerous.. and maybe I liked that. Who am I kidding.. Yes I do .
And I find myself hoping that there may be more around the corner.
So, what to do with myself, I was tired and feeling a bit irritable and restless, so I went to the main fires and sat for a bit, in truth I was some what uncomfortable, and I found myself wanting to lunge at the jugular of a few, not because they did anything but just because it was what I was feeling. So I left the fires to try and occupy my hands. I was feeling to raw and sensitive I knew this and I knew of myself that it is better to stay away from people that way I do not unintentionally hurt them with my mouth as it could be quite a weapon when I chose to use it for such.
But I was irritated with Ayguili, in fact I felt a bit hurt. But, I said nothing. I had to work thru these things as best I could, eventually I returned and found Ayguili and Ongel talking, or rather as soon as I sat down Ayguili left irritated, at first I thought it was me, but I would find out it was a discussion between him and the healer that set him off. Ongel was also somewhat irritated and I asked of it, of course I got the nothing routine, but I knew better. He did the evasive maneuver and turned the discussion towards me he wanted to know how I was doing, I was honest with him, I really did not know. There was so much in my mind and so much I felt, we spoke a bit on this and he gave me a few thoughts to consider and the things he mentioned they made sense to me, and I will try this to see how it goes. He is right, and I was glad to be able to speak of it.
In the process of this discussion, he told me he had been an ass. Now, what man is not an ass from time to time, but I did get that it had to do with his discussion with the Ubar, something in the discussion with me seemed to have also helped him to see something and realize something. He quickly commanded takara to make a basket with an array of foods and drinks, he wanted to find Cana and asked if I knew where she was. Well, if she wasn't at her wagons I would say she was at the kaiila pens. So I sent lily to find her, and sure enough she was at the pens. Next thing I knew, Ongel was urging me to join him that we were going to have a picnic with Cana. Now something was up but what I am not sure, it had to do with his talk with Ayguili I just knew it did.
Sure enough when we found her he told her he could no longer be her healer and went on to explain why. Well now I could see his point on a few things, I could also see why Ayguili might get upset, but I think that sometimes Ayguili doesn't always hear what he needs to, at times I have noticed he is quick to brush things off or blow of a few emotions and thoughts, I have once before pointed this out and well, he is a man and makes mistakes he cant be perfect, and he will never make everyone happy, he can only do the best he can and he will take missteps. I think he will realize a few things himself as well.
Takara lay out a blanket with an array of foods, now Ongel decided we were having a wager , who could gain the most weight in two hands. And if one of us won then he would, now let me see what all he said, clean our wagons and a whole list of things I will have to ask Cana. and if he wins then we have to paint his wagons. Gain weight, I had to look at myself, I wasn't skinny, I wasn't fat, but I had curves in the right places and they were soft not bony. How in the name of the skies do I gain weight, I don't like sweets, and I work so much that I would burn of anything I did eat. Well this is a dilemma, Now Cana she needs to gain weight, and she likes sweets, now I was liking this wager, she would have to eat gain weight and gain strength, okay I would go for this wager . Even if I lost, it still would be a good wager. So I was eating the meat and they had the sweets and we shared in some drink as well.
Now I rarely drink anything stronger than black wine, so the drink relaxed me, it was not really strong enough to affect me to the point that my senses were clouded or that I did anything foolish, but the night was filled with laughter and jokes, and they were trying to get me to do the sweets, okay I tried the one drink, oh good skies I felt my cheeks pucker in ward and my body shudder from how sweet it was, then there was a bit of a kick to it a bit of fire, that part I liked, I do enjoy that. But damnation sweet, ew, ew and double ew. Before I knew it they had me eating sweets. See he is damn dangerous, next thing I know he will have me liking sweets.
He shared a story of when he was first mated and how he ended up with his backside painted because he passed out on the steps of the wagon, ohh now this I found amusing and I also had a really good visual in my mind, as I was relaxed enough that I was not holding on to those walls and curtains that hide me. I was enjoying myself with them and the laughter made my sides hurt. Rook took Cana away to make her rest just as Ongel suggested we dance, now not the kind that slaves do, and yes, free women do and can dance. Now, she nearly blew me away, when she said, that we should go find furs together, now wait a minute no she didn't say that and by her laughter, oh yes she did. Now what was she trying to say or better yet what was she trying to do. That is as bad as Ayguili saying I should have offered myself the other night, now what he meant by that I am not sure. Just what are the two of them up to.
But, anyway I had to laugh as I told him that there he went and scared everyone off again until it was just the two us again. takara was imbibing a lot of drink and food and was just enjoying herself by the blanket. I felt the warmth of his hand as he took mine in his and drew me closer not to close but just closer and we began to dance I had to laugh as he dipped me, ever watch the ground and the sky switch places well that is pretty cool. Good thing he had a hold of me or I would have been topsy turvey myself.
He commented on how very beautiful I was, and how that made me feel inside I don't think words would justify,and of course I had to tell him just how handsome he was as he helped me to stand, one hand would rest on his shoulder as I found myself closer to him, I could inhale his scent, it was masculine, held the strength of the man, the healer, the warrior, and yet it was tempered with passion and the plains, it was unique and I found it rather tantalizing. He caught the scent of my hair and commented on it and in that moment it was as if something were weaving around us, beckoning and pulling. As we spoke on these scents he pulled me closer to him and I felt him as I am sure he felt me. There was a sudden want there that was smoldering and threatening to ignite into an inferno if either one of us were not careful and we both were aware of this. When he spoke I felt his breath caress my lips in a soft, warm touch, strange is it not that I found myself wanting to feel his lips against mine. It is not easy to illicit such from me, and I could not deny it was there, I wanted to feel him and taste him, yes, he is definitely dangerous. I think he may have wanted it to but knew just what that kiss might ignite and instead I felt his lips along my neck and a light nip which sent a shiver thru me, damn I wonder if he realizes just what that did to me. But I knew I was not alone, because his words of walking me to my wagon before we both could not stop allowed me to know that he was affected also, as well as a few words he spoke of earlier. They put a few visuals in my head that I think would tease me most of the night.
Now see I decided to take a step I do not know why and it isn't something I would normally do, but it was there in my mind so I spoke of it to him, I told him that I hoped that my scent would stay with him all night and the next day so that he would be reminded of me, and to dream of me. I can say this much, I definitely lay awake for a while as things he awakened in me would stir beneath the surface for a while, I know that he was on my mind when I finally was able to sleep.
He was becoming dangerous.. and maybe I liked that. Who am I kidding.. Yes I do .
And I find myself hoping that there may be more around the corner.
