Bits of dust and leaves hovered in the air as I rummaged thru some old trunks in one of my wagons, layers of hides and other oddities lay on the floor of the wagon as I searched for something. I was not sure where I had put the amulet, but I needed to find it. It was one that was identical to one that my sister Dina had. We had found them many turnings ago. We had not been sure of what they were for, but we knew they had some use. I still was not sure, but I felt the need to find it.
After some time I found it, nestled and hidden in the corner wrapped in white hide. Lifting it gently up out of its resting place I let it fall into the palm of my hand. The stone shimmered as if it held a fire within it, almost iridescent as if the moons themselves were captured along with the fire. It was simple, oval and hung on a piece of braided leather.
Holding it tightly I then left the wagon not bothering to pick up the disarray I left within it, not my usual way of leaving things, but at the moment I really didn't care. I headed from my circle of wagons and made my way across the plains, walking to a particular spot. There I would create a circle of stones this would take some time as I needed to find the right ones. Then I sprinkled a blend of herbs within the circle to purify it as an ancient chant left my lips.
Once was all as I wanted it, I sat within it and allowed myself to relax, I had the amulet that matched Dina's and the one that Lochley gave me when he died. Both were mine yet each were different and served different purposes. But somehow I knew both would be needed. For some reason I placed on over my head to let it rest along my skin and the other I for now lay on the ground across from me.
It is easy enough to become lost beyond that which we cannot see, I slip easily enough into the state of being where there is nothing but the stillness, it is a place I enjoy being lost in. Usually there is nothing, no sound, no movement and no scents. It was peaceful a place to seek answers and guidance. Something I really needed. Tonight was different, there was the slithering of the essence of one that should not be so near, it was so strong I nearly lost my focus and concentration. It was something older than perhaps time itself, I was not sure but it felt like it. There was a dankness in the air that assaulted my senses and left me feeling cold and apprehensive, this should not be. Something was very wrong with this.
I tried to pull myself back into the world of people and of the plains to touch the grass that I knew surrounded my body and held me in its embrace. But I could not. Something blocked me from doing so,it was as if I was stuck in this state. I could not yell for anyone, or make any movement to alert another that something was wrong, not that anyone was close to me at the moment.
This was not a good sign. This was not supposed to be happening, I knew I was not yet ready. I was making preparations before this to be able to handle or at least sort of handle what my plan was. But this was not part of it, and in this manner at this time I knew I could not do this alone. The fact that it was happening filled me with a fear I have never felt since I was a young child, the kind that pushes you to the edge of hysteria, only there was no one to smack sense back into me. I was stuck here.
For how long and why. How do I find my way out.
This was not in my plans. Somehow I do not think this is the humor of the skies, if it is, I do not find it the least bit amusing.
Now what? Good Question.
After some time I found it, nestled and hidden in the corner wrapped in white hide. Lifting it gently up out of its resting place I let it fall into the palm of my hand. The stone shimmered as if it held a fire within it, almost iridescent as if the moons themselves were captured along with the fire. It was simple, oval and hung on a piece of braided leather.
Holding it tightly I then left the wagon not bothering to pick up the disarray I left within it, not my usual way of leaving things, but at the moment I really didn't care. I headed from my circle of wagons and made my way across the plains, walking to a particular spot. There I would create a circle of stones this would take some time as I needed to find the right ones. Then I sprinkled a blend of herbs within the circle to purify it as an ancient chant left my lips.
Once was all as I wanted it, I sat within it and allowed myself to relax, I had the amulet that matched Dina's and the one that Lochley gave me when he died. Both were mine yet each were different and served different purposes. But somehow I knew both would be needed. For some reason I placed on over my head to let it rest along my skin and the other I for now lay on the ground across from me.
It is easy enough to become lost beyond that which we cannot see, I slip easily enough into the state of being where there is nothing but the stillness, it is a place I enjoy being lost in. Usually there is nothing, no sound, no movement and no scents. It was peaceful a place to seek answers and guidance. Something I really needed. Tonight was different, there was the slithering of the essence of one that should not be so near, it was so strong I nearly lost my focus and concentration. It was something older than perhaps time itself, I was not sure but it felt like it. There was a dankness in the air that assaulted my senses and left me feeling cold and apprehensive, this should not be. Something was very wrong with this.
I tried to pull myself back into the world of people and of the plains to touch the grass that I knew surrounded my body and held me in its embrace. But I could not. Something blocked me from doing so,it was as if I was stuck in this state. I could not yell for anyone, or make any movement to alert another that something was wrong, not that anyone was close to me at the moment.
This was not a good sign. This was not supposed to be happening, I knew I was not yet ready. I was making preparations before this to be able to handle or at least sort of handle what my plan was. But this was not part of it, and in this manner at this time I knew I could not do this alone. The fact that it was happening filled me with a fear I have never felt since I was a young child, the kind that pushes you to the edge of hysteria, only there was no one to smack sense back into me. I was stuck here.
For how long and why. How do I find my way out.
This was not in my plans. Somehow I do not think this is the humor of the skies, if it is, I do not find it the least bit amusing.
Now what? Good Question.
