When I fell into an exhausted sleep it was only for a few ahns, but it was that deep sleep that came from being so tired that you had no choice but to sleep, I awoke with a start my body drenched in sweat and my breath came in ragged soul drenching gasps. Whatever it was that woke me hovered at the fringes of my vision, there but out of clear focus. Just out of my reach, but how it made me feel filled me with a sense of dread and sorrow.
I got up and made sure I had plenty of water as well as Cana, I had sat with takara for a short while by the main fires,it is interesting the things she had shared with me and I explained to her how things that were done in the cities is not done here nor would anyone know what they meant. She offered to be a vessel to vent my frustrations on if I wanted to as she had seen my annoyance with her Master. This took me aback a bit, I did not take out my anger or frustrations out on another person slave or free, that just is not me. Her offer I knew was genuine but it was not one I would take. I knew that I would not hold my upset long, it just didn't feel right to do so, it did not mean I understood but when time permitted I would ask and seek understanding as I rose to go check on the elders, I cautioned her to not venture to far from the wagons today and that I had extra salves, including some trevarian salve that I wanted her to take to her masters wagon, lily would take some to Silks as well and she would make sure the healers had water as well. I spent the rest of the day going thru the one wagon I had that held an array of supplies, moving them into my own personal wagon and also taking them to some of the elders, Ayguili and others so that we would have them. I would spend ahns working on this as did others of the clan, it was not something we could define but it was more of a feeling to be doing various things.
Eventually I made my way to the fires and lowered to sit once more, I was joined by Silk who shared with me that she felt she was with child,I congratulated her and there was the part of me that pricked my conscious with a bit of envy. But I was truly happy for her, we spoke of various things and somehow came to the topic of women that unmanned men, strange as it was we have seen it here on the plains, it was about that time Ash joined us, now all women know how to unman a man and it is not in the literal physical sense, though some of us choose to build the men we care for up, support then and protect that masculinity. Ash rubs me the wrong way most times, he likes to try and think he has some command over me, I hate to tell him he does not and he likes to think that he knows so much about me by things I present, again another mistake. He does not know me any better than he does a stranger, and his assumptions get on my last nerve and today I severed it. He crossed a line with me, and I will not forget it, he will get the polite respect due a warrior of the tribe nothing more. And never try to force me to give you answers that you clearly know. I do not placate people or play that mind game. He is not my father, he is not my brother, he is not my mate nor is he a warrior that would be seeking to have me as a mate. So therefore, he has no say, and he would be wise to stop. I had to leave before Silk got more upset than she was and before I forgot myself and simply decked him and sent him into the next hand. Though I did tell Silk to stay close to Ash, he might be an ass in my opinion but he was still her mate and she was happy with him, that is his saving grace.
I finished up with a few tasks that required my attention and then went to see where everyone was, in the course of my day I realized I had not seen anyone today. Ash and Silk were where I left them along with the healer, I still felt some frustration with him as I joined them. Ongel spoke to me and his question illicited one of those yes I am still annoyed with you responses, to which he said that he felt a cold wind, and my mouth sometimes gets the better of me as I offered that he might enjoy it. Now his answer gave me pause, and it made me wonder if he preferred my silence to my talking to him, or was it he enjoyed the distance, or did he mean it in a non literal sense of the cool winds would be welcome from the heat. Once more he has me somewhat off balance and unsure, damn him, I hate that, not really knowing but having to think.
And my mood was one in which I really was to tired to figure it out, that did not mean I did not want to, it was just I was not sure what to do, so I became quiet and simply said "I see." His response clearly indicated that no I didn't, and before I could ask anything more. I watched as Silk suddenly dashed to empty the contents of her stomach, there is that little side effect there to ruin a perfectly joyous moment. And you never know when it will rear its ugly head, I walked towards her and wet a cloth and placed it along her head and gently touched her arm so she knew I was there. The heat was not good for her and I was worried. I usually don't have to worry of Silk and pregnancies but this heat was taking its toll. I spoke gently to her as I helped her up. Her and I have been thru a lot together and our friendship has often been tested by others seeking destruction, but we somehow still have that bond, a bit tattered but not broken.
I felt very uneasy, something was not right, I felt the air seem to grow warmer and it seemed to howl and crackle with a breath of heat that could melt your very flesh from your bones. It was in the moment the strong pungent aroma of smoke filled the air, the kind that spoke of a fire. A fire. It was too dry and hot for that. This would not be good. I told the others I had to go Mezoo and some of the elders of the clan and a few children were going out riding, the elders were giving some of their lessons that were both to enjoy a day out and to learn. I heard Ongel tell me to ensure I had outriders with me and to not be stubborn.
I went quickly to the pens to find Eclipse and was pleased to see Ulric already there with men and he had him ready for me I put a saddle on him which he did not like as it was not my usual to use one, but I needed a few things with me. Now I am far from foolish, yes, stubborn to a fault I will admit it but never foolish, I would heed Ongels words to have others with me, I had no desire to endanger myself or others,nor did I have any desire to distract him with concern over what I would do, instead of focusing on what he needed to do for it was going to be a night full of chaos and carnage and he would need his attention on those would need his healing abilities.
We rode fast and hard and the air was quickly heavy with smoke that burned the lungs and the eyes, this was not a good sign, the air echoed with cries of panic and chaos, the sounds felt as if someone thru a million shards of broken glass into me. This could not be happening. The emotions rose as high as the walls of fire that were beginning to crescendo.
We found Mezoo, and the others, one of the elders was badly hurt and I did not think he would make it as one of the men took him and gathered up the children, the smoke was heavy and I felt my lungs burn, fire is my strongest element, but even for me this was beyond what I could control and each of us knew that we could not touch this one or interfere the signs have been revealing all along the sky was going to do something and not even a spex interfered with what the sky sought to do.
No one is an exception to this...
However, as youth often does, they think they can save the world so to speak, and while the intention is from the heart and for the better of people and themselves. They to like some us of older ones.. have to learn the hard way.
And a lesson was quickly coming. . .
I got up and made sure I had plenty of water as well as Cana, I had sat with takara for a short while by the main fires,it is interesting the things she had shared with me and I explained to her how things that were done in the cities is not done here nor would anyone know what they meant. She offered to be a vessel to vent my frustrations on if I wanted to as she had seen my annoyance with her Master. This took me aback a bit, I did not take out my anger or frustrations out on another person slave or free, that just is not me. Her offer I knew was genuine but it was not one I would take. I knew that I would not hold my upset long, it just didn't feel right to do so, it did not mean I understood but when time permitted I would ask and seek understanding as I rose to go check on the elders, I cautioned her to not venture to far from the wagons today and that I had extra salves, including some trevarian salve that I wanted her to take to her masters wagon, lily would take some to Silks as well and she would make sure the healers had water as well. I spent the rest of the day going thru the one wagon I had that held an array of supplies, moving them into my own personal wagon and also taking them to some of the elders, Ayguili and others so that we would have them. I would spend ahns working on this as did others of the clan, it was not something we could define but it was more of a feeling to be doing various things.
Eventually I made my way to the fires and lowered to sit once more, I was joined by Silk who shared with me that she felt she was with child,I congratulated her and there was the part of me that pricked my conscious with a bit of envy. But I was truly happy for her, we spoke of various things and somehow came to the topic of women that unmanned men, strange as it was we have seen it here on the plains, it was about that time Ash joined us, now all women know how to unman a man and it is not in the literal physical sense, though some of us choose to build the men we care for up, support then and protect that masculinity. Ash rubs me the wrong way most times, he likes to try and think he has some command over me, I hate to tell him he does not and he likes to think that he knows so much about me by things I present, again another mistake. He does not know me any better than he does a stranger, and his assumptions get on my last nerve and today I severed it. He crossed a line with me, and I will not forget it, he will get the polite respect due a warrior of the tribe nothing more. And never try to force me to give you answers that you clearly know. I do not placate people or play that mind game. He is not my father, he is not my brother, he is not my mate nor is he a warrior that would be seeking to have me as a mate. So therefore, he has no say, and he would be wise to stop. I had to leave before Silk got more upset than she was and before I forgot myself and simply decked him and sent him into the next hand. Though I did tell Silk to stay close to Ash, he might be an ass in my opinion but he was still her mate and she was happy with him, that is his saving grace.
I finished up with a few tasks that required my attention and then went to see where everyone was, in the course of my day I realized I had not seen anyone today. Ash and Silk were where I left them along with the healer, I still felt some frustration with him as I joined them. Ongel spoke to me and his question illicited one of those yes I am still annoyed with you responses, to which he said that he felt a cold wind, and my mouth sometimes gets the better of me as I offered that he might enjoy it. Now his answer gave me pause, and it made me wonder if he preferred my silence to my talking to him, or was it he enjoyed the distance, or did he mean it in a non literal sense of the cool winds would be welcome from the heat. Once more he has me somewhat off balance and unsure, damn him, I hate that, not really knowing but having to think.
And my mood was one in which I really was to tired to figure it out, that did not mean I did not want to, it was just I was not sure what to do, so I became quiet and simply said "I see." His response clearly indicated that no I didn't, and before I could ask anything more. I watched as Silk suddenly dashed to empty the contents of her stomach, there is that little side effect there to ruin a perfectly joyous moment. And you never know when it will rear its ugly head, I walked towards her and wet a cloth and placed it along her head and gently touched her arm so she knew I was there. The heat was not good for her and I was worried. I usually don't have to worry of Silk and pregnancies but this heat was taking its toll. I spoke gently to her as I helped her up. Her and I have been thru a lot together and our friendship has often been tested by others seeking destruction, but we somehow still have that bond, a bit tattered but not broken.
I felt very uneasy, something was not right, I felt the air seem to grow warmer and it seemed to howl and crackle with a breath of heat that could melt your very flesh from your bones. It was in the moment the strong pungent aroma of smoke filled the air, the kind that spoke of a fire. A fire. It was too dry and hot for that. This would not be good. I told the others I had to go Mezoo and some of the elders of the clan and a few children were going out riding, the elders were giving some of their lessons that were both to enjoy a day out and to learn. I heard Ongel tell me to ensure I had outriders with me and to not be stubborn.
I went quickly to the pens to find Eclipse and was pleased to see Ulric already there with men and he had him ready for me I put a saddle on him which he did not like as it was not my usual to use one, but I needed a few things with me. Now I am far from foolish, yes, stubborn to a fault I will admit it but never foolish, I would heed Ongels words to have others with me, I had no desire to endanger myself or others,nor did I have any desire to distract him with concern over what I would do, instead of focusing on what he needed to do for it was going to be a night full of chaos and carnage and he would need his attention on those would need his healing abilities.
We rode fast and hard and the air was quickly heavy with smoke that burned the lungs and the eyes, this was not a good sign, the air echoed with cries of panic and chaos, the sounds felt as if someone thru a million shards of broken glass into me. This could not be happening. The emotions rose as high as the walls of fire that were beginning to crescendo.
We found Mezoo, and the others, one of the elders was badly hurt and I did not think he would make it as one of the men took him and gathered up the children, the smoke was heavy and I felt my lungs burn, fire is my strongest element, but even for me this was beyond what I could control and each of us knew that we could not touch this one or interfere the signs have been revealing all along the sky was going to do something and not even a spex interfered with what the sky sought to do.
No one is an exception to this...
However, as youth often does, they think they can save the world so to speak, and while the intention is from the heart and for the better of people and themselves. They to like some us of older ones.. have to learn the hard way.
And a lesson was quickly coming. . .
