A restful sleep, finally

I woke up with a start.

I could feel my heart pounding in my chest and my breath coming in a rapid succession. I saw myself on a trail, it was well worn and safe, windy in many directions with many twists and turns, it was intersecting with a less traveled path, its direction unknown and where it lead unknown. Garyx had his arm extended reaching out to me, at first as I recalled it I thought I had lost my hold and he was reaching for me, but as I look at the images in my mind I was standing on solid ground, but a wind was blowing around me, within its invisible layers I could see various people, situations, events and thoughts. They drifted around me all speaking at once, I was trying to decipher them. Thru all of it Garyx stood, tall and proud, confident and patiently, as if he were waiting for me to decide something, He knew, but I did not yet, now how odd was that, the spex not knowing but yet he did? What else would be new, when it came to me, he often knew me better than I did. He knew how to handle me and allow me to see clear.

Lifting a hand to my temple I felt the dampness of my skin, it was an odd dream one I am not sure what it meant but I knew it meant something, maybe I had dreamed Garyx was alive and that was just an image of him leaving me once more. But as I lay there I knew this was not true, because I felt the warmth of his arms around me as he held me close to him, the hard planes of his body molded along the softer ones of mine as my head rested on his chest, I was protected in his embrace and loved, I am not yet sure how much he remembered but he was remembering I do know that.


It occurred to me in spite of the dream, I had for the first time in many turnings, slept a deep peaceful sleep, and I knew why, it was because I was once more with him and he was with me, my protector, my confident, my lover and my mate, so many things could describe our relationship for it was not imprisoned by just one set of rules or conformity, nor did we live and express ourselves as others desire. In private we have no walls, no barriers, what we feel is what we follow.

Although we did not have a chance to talk for exhaustion had taken its toll, the night was emotionally charged even if we both held it in reserve as we felt our way thru unfamilar territory, emotionally the night had taken much out of us and we decided to rest before talking, for that was going to take some time to catch up on everything, and re-connect.

For now I will try to rest some more, as the sky brings about a new beginning.

And I for one am thankful that the sky saw fit to return him home to the plains, and to bring him back to me.
He is the black larl to the white larl, he is the one that is the guardian to the shadow walker. Many things now begin to fall into place.

Some prophecies are meant to happen and will happen regardless of what we think or know.

Seek and ye shall find

Ulric was getting impatient with me, I could tell by his words and actions. I managed to talk him into at least one more day, I could not explain but I knew I could not turn back now I have traveled to far and spent to much time out here to just turn away.

I was compelled to go forward, I could not explain it.

The herlit was relentless lately in his call and presence, he would hover and fly around, I swear it was trying to talk, I was following that damned bird for some reason, perhaps because to me he was a sign. As we traveled a light mist seemed to crawl along the ground it was in my mind that it was obscuring but for a moment of time, then it would reveal something but what. Yes, I know I am really quite insane I have decided.

We traveled some distance when we saw a glow in the shroud of darkness, the way it moved I knew that it was a fire,the herlit was going towards it, really that suncatcher is not to bright. But I followed anyway. The closer I got to the camp the more strange I felt, my heart raced and pounded in my chest, it was as if something were waiting and my senses already were in motion.

Dismounting from Mist Runner I walked towards the fire, I did not see anyone but I felt him, there was a hum in the air and it vibrated around me, only one person could I feel like that, but I knew it could not be he was dead. But yet there was movement in the shadows and when he stepped out I felt such an overpowering surge of emotions that I felt myself sway, I reached out to Ulric to steady myself only because he was behind me. There before me stood Garyx. I have never fainted in my life but in that one moment I thought I would.


He spoke my name, and seemed surprised to know it, but when he said I know you, I knew something had happened, he knew me yet he did not. I could feel the many emotions that warred within him as he struggled to remember how he knew me, I stepped towards him and looked up at him lifting my hand to touch his face, beneath my flesh I could feel the scars, I knew when each one was given to him, so much was between us that bound us together, the connection was once more sparked I could feel it. The part of me that was missing was once more reconnecting to me. I told him that yes he knew me, that he was my warrior a part of me and I a part of him.

There was a moment that he looked a bit perplexed as if trying to take it all in, it was only when he touched the braided lock of hair that held a larls tooth and herlits feather did he say that he gave it to me to remember him, and he did, he made it not long after we were mated, when much strife and dreams were invading my sleep and the tribe was going through so many changes, even we had moments of strain and tests to get thru, part of his helping me was that gift, it was to know he was with me always, and that it was his strength lent to mine. Especially during patrol or on hunts that I could not be with him on.

He looked to me and suddenly pulled me into his arms and held me close to him. No words were needed.
I know that he is feeling so much as a dam has been unblocked and much is rushing thru him, I hold him close to me and it is the feel of him and his scent wrap around me.

For now I could only thank the skies that he was alive, he was flesh and blood I had not imagined everything. He was here in my arms and for the moment that is all I could think of.

Soon there will be time for words, but at the moment they are not going to intrude into this moment.